About me.
I have always been somebody who is aware of many levels of detail and perspective within life and have always investigated how everything fits together. I grew up in the 1980s just outside of London in the UK and was fortunate to be surrounded by many different types of people from many different backgrounds who offered a wide variety of beliefs, stories and knowledge from which to learn and to compare. Having such a rich environment allowed me to gain a broad understanding of human life on Earth. At around 4 years old I began learning to program my Mother's first home computer and my relationship with systems, creativity and specifically computer technology was born.
School days were often quite boring for me as I was simply not particularly interested in what was being taught most of the time and somewhere within me I knew I actually disagreed with much of the information that was shared. I now know that it was around this time that a part of me turned itself 'off' and decided to wake up when I was 'older' and able to guide my own destiny more effectively than I was allowed to as a child. After leaving school at 16 years old I studied computer science, business and also history at college and then went on to focus specifically on computer science for my degree at university. It was at university that I had enough time and freedom to become more acquainted with my own mind and I spent many hours in relative isolation thinking, discovering and also experimenting with the same types of psychedelic compounds that are usually found at universities in most places in the world. Somewhat disillusioned with the angle that my computing course was taking I became something of a philosopher, musician and artist. I moved from playing electric guitar as a hobby to learning to produce dance music on a computer and rapidly moved into the world of music production, parties and raves.
As I learned about systems in my lessons at university, I began to merge the ideas with my newly found expanded awareness and understanding of vibration/music and consciousness/life. And so I began the journey of understanding which led to the creation of 'Infinite Eureka'. I didn't realise it at the time though; from my perspective I was seeking to ease boredom and to discover more of what life has to offer.
After leaving university I worked for a very large pharmaceutical company for a year and learnt a great deal about how I didn't want to live! The heavily compartmentalised, hierarchical and stifled nature of my working environment in a strange way actually motivated me to stay working there as I was so intrigued as to the mindset of the people who would deliberately choose to spend their entire lives working there. Ah well, to each their own.
My next job saw me working as a software developer in the City of London, making banking software for sale to international banks and other organisations for nearly 3 years. As unpleasant as I found the work at the time I learned many invaluable lessons regarding our society's design, the bizarre nature of our financial systems and the beliefs and behaviours that surround and support them. The pressure of delivering solid code in a short space of time forced me to become extremely logical in my thinking and I began to focus my thought processes to such a degree that I often felt that I had virtually merged my mind with my computer! My artistic work continued during my out of work hours and I was gradually working towards leaving software and moving completely into the world of music production. It was around this point that the 911 event occurred in New York and I watched it happen live on my computer screen. I had never experienced such a feeling of un-reality as I did when I watched those planes hit the towers. I looked around my office and after the initial interest lulled from my co-workers many people simply went back to work as if nothing had happened! I couldn't believe what I was seeing, not only was this the most stunning event to have occurred in my lifetime but some of our clients were actually in the towers and I at least felt a personal connection to what occurred. The knock-on effect of 911 on our company was devastating, the company gradually laid off most of the staff as the banks were being cautious and no longer wished to invest in software. My eyes opened by the connotations of 911 and the likelihood that I would soon lose my job my mind went into overdrive attempting to seek a path that would somehow rectify the imbalance that was clearly showing itself in so many areas of life on Earth.
And that's when things became rather unusual for me. It was late one night and I had been making music and smoking strong weed, I stood up too quickly and blacked out, narrowly avoiding hitting my head on the bed next to me. As I entered the blackness I recall thinking "Oh, that's it... I'm dead!" yet I wasn't dead and after a short while I came back to consciousness, climbed into bed and went to sleep. The next day I went to work and my eyes wouldn't focus on the screen, I became very anxious and felt 'broken' for want of a better word. I took about 6 weeks off of work and descended into a kind of psychosis brought about through the combination of the high pressure that I experienced in my work, the state of the current world, my feeling of dis-empowerment to change anything and catalysed by my use of strong cannabis. Looking back, much of this was an orchestration from a higher form of my consciousness to get me to move in a more enjoyable direction in life but at the time I simply felt quite vacant and angry. After not sleeping for around 4 weeks (I assure you this is true) I began to return to normality and eventually returned to work. It was not long before the company I was working for got bought by an American corporation and they continued to lay off staff. I was so thankful to be made redundant at this point that as others stood around crying I was ecstatic and couldn't wait to walk a different path.
I spent the next few months travelling from my home to my friend's house in Norwich, Norfolk where we would spend many hours in the studio, playing with sounds and making music. This new found freedom allowed me to integrate the experiences of the past few months, not least the experience of having 'known' the experience of death, of having known what it feels like to believe your life is over. Then one day as my friends were making music, somewhat out of the blue, I picked up a book called 'Sacred Geometry' and my whole life changed in an instant. I learned how mathematics has been intertwined with society's beliefs and how the religious activities of our past were heavily permeated with sacred geometrical knowledge. Most importantly I began to learn of a means of unifying ALL religions and saw how all races are connected in ways which are heavily obscured through our traditional, conditioned perspective on life. I ran to the nearest bookshop and bought a pile of books on a variety of metaphysical subjects, from Buddhism and Zen through to Wicca and Native American philosophy, intent on expanding my understanding and continuing to connect the dots that unify us as one people. As it happens I only read about 40 pages of the Buddhist book and some of the Zen book before I had what I can only describe an extended moment of manic enlightenment! I began to 'see' energy, to literally see energy flows within the air and even experienced psychic phenomena which most people would put down to 'ghosts'. Yet this was not random or accidental, my experiences were following a pattern which a part of me understood. I was excited and scared at the same time but I knew I had no choice but to continue. I began to record my thoughts on my computer and wrote hundreds of pages which now form the earliest foundations of 'Infinite Eureka' but my ideas were often confused and fragmented, just as I was.
I also got a sense of extra terrestrial visitors in a way which even now is quite hard to put into words, I began to 'download' understanding and knowledge from a source that I didn't understand and had the feeling that I was not alone in my thoughts of unification and world peace. None of this was unpleasant, in fact it felt very natural, yet my need to understand 'everything' did from time to time send me into a tailspin. It was not long after this that whilst driving home with a friend I got a shock of energy up my spine urging me to look to the left and upwards. As my eyes came to a rest I saw a large red, glowing triangular craft hovering above the tree-line which appeared to be about 100 metres away! It was dark and all I could make out was the red colour and a wobbly orange underside. I turned to my friend in the seat next to me and said "What do you think that is?", I pointed and his face rapidly turned to shock. All I could do was laugh that we were both seeing the same thing and I wasn't going mad; my experiences were genuine, confirmed and life changing.
A short while after these amazing experiences I began to lose all sense of grounding in reality, I had no reference point to compare my experiences and had never deliberately meditated so became quite unbalanced. My friends were becoming gradually more concerned by my behaviour which I was unable to relate to them in a way which they could fully appreciate. Ever since I was a child I have had the fear that I would end up in a mental hospital simply because my perspective on life has always been so thoroughly different to most other people. The more unusual my experiences became the more real this fear became and the further away I felt I was moving from 'normality' and thus 'acceptance' from society. As I viewed my life from two seemingly disconnected worlds, one of money and 'survival' and another that hinted of oneness and literal heaven I began to feel very unsure of what to do and how to progress. I checked myself into a mental hospital as I felt I needed to be in a safe environment and could think of nowhere else to go. I spent 24 hours in total in the hospital in Norwich and my life changing experiences continued apace. I became aware that all was not as it seemed and I was asked several questions which left me unable to answer, including "Are you a Christmas present come early?". I had no idea what I was being asked but I could see that the nurse who was speaking to me was aware of something that I wasn't and if she wasn't then there was certainly a multi levelled nature to our conversation which had important connotations and that excited me greatly. It did not take me long to talk my way out of the hospital, commenting on the psychiatric communities lack of understanding of schizophrenia and their actual creation of the dis-ease in many non schizoid patients through the drugs that were supposed to cure the condition. The phrase 'Insanity is that which the brain does not yet understand' came to me and the doctors were sufficiently sure that I was in a mind-state that did not suggest illness. In the end I was diagnosed with 'Ideas of reference', which is a hilarious way of saying that you have ideas which suggest that events in the 'outer' reality relate to you directly in ways which most people would not understand. I returned home and deliberately 'lost' the CD of my writings from Norwich into storage, thinking I had no way of making use of them, they were simply attempting to unify too many topics and were too ambitious for me to even contemplate completing them (or so I thought).
In need of money and completely at a loss as to how to make use of my experiences I took a low stress job in a software company and attempted to largely ignore what had happened. I continued making music and intended to make my way in the world in that way; reality had other ideas however and about a year after I started this new job (a few days before Christmas 2003) I had a near fatal car accident whilst driving home, being struck from behind by a lorry that was travelling at around 60mph. The very next day I was made redundant from my job and once again my entire life fell apart into a million pieces. I was left with crippling damage to my neck, some loss of hearing and the realisation that I needed to make great changes in my life. And so began my journey of healing myself physically and attempting to receive compensation for my accident, both of which proved to be almost impossible under the systems we have in the UK. Even though the accident wasn't my fault and I was clearly injured I was shuffled from one specialist to another, none of whom offered any assistance that was of any real use.
Unable to properly continue my musical work, broke and in constant physical pain I began a new career in web programming from home. It was not long before I connected with a new start-up company in London who were seeking to build a social network for media creators and I teamed up with them. I had all but forgotten about the strange occurrences that had happened the few years before yet they left a definite impact on my perspective and outlook. One day, whilst researching existing social networks I discovered www.tribe.net and began to read through some of the discussions on sacred geometry and other related topics. I had completely forgotten about my previous discoveries in relation to religion and sacred geometry and I was astounded to discover such a wealth of information in full public usage. I came across the book 'The ancient secret of the flower of life' by Drunvalo Melchizedek and it reawakened me to a new level of synchronicity and understanding. Once again my life became quite unreal in many ways and this time with increased understanding I began to experience a dreamlike, exciting and synchronous journey. Once again I saw extra terrestrial crafts in the sky (always while accompanied by others) and this time I was ready for it.
Within days of all this I was introduced to the channelled consciousness 'Bashar', via Darryl Anka from Los Angeles and I was completely blown away. Not only had I been introduced to a much deeper understanding of sacred geometry, i was now witness to communication between our civilisation and a believable extra terrestrial one! My previous experiences came flooding back with a new found validation and I felt more at ease than I had done in a long time. I listened to every Bashar session I could find and read numerous new books on esoteric topics, on the ET phenomena and just about every related topic. I felt that I had reconnected with the ecstatic energy that I had experienced years before in Norwich and not knowing where my life would take me next i decided to leave the social network project to heal myself in as many ways as possible.
My neck was finally being treated by an amazing osteopath and I sought out a wide array of different healing types for my tinnitus, including a 2 week fruit 'cleanse' which left me feeling more alive than I could recall ever feeling. I had a few options of what to do for money and none of them really grabbed my attention and spoke to my heart. I decided to decorate my living space and just as I was homing in on a new path I rediscovered the CD containing my earliest writings sitting in a black sack and knew that I wanted to complete the previous visions I had seen of what this book would become.
I was synchronously informed that many people would be 'sent' my way and that I should learn from them. During the next six months I encountered so many positive, open and loving people that my life and worldview shifted over and over until I was in little doubt that I was finally in the right place in life for me. I learned to appreciate the world again and see through new eyes as I researched my book and continued to learn. I covered a huge amount of ground in a short space of time, effortlessly finding pieces of information which I needed to complete my understanding of myself, of how humanity came to be where it is and where it can go. I investigated absolutely everything I could find that was relevant, neither the darkest recesses of modern humanity, nor the most personally painful topics were avoided. I had always thought "There must be other people working on the same topics that I am, there must be other books already around which contain the same information", yet so far I have not seen my message put across in the same multi dimensional way as I intend. I found many works and projects which had discovered and shared equally amazing information which was very closely linked, yet the nature and exciting implications are of the patterns I have seen are not widely known even among those who focus in the areas of consciousness research, metaphysics and so on. I was so motivated that every day I wrote numerous pages of text which to another person might have seemed to be unrelated to each other and yet I knew that they were all expressing the same idea from different perspectives. I was continuing the creation of a multi dimensional work and the design of it formed and reformed over and over, yet remaining highly centred on the same message and ideas.
Fast forwards to today (Spring 2008) and I am currently preparing a number of chapters for consideration by publishers and am seeking a relatively small amount of funding to support myself as I complete the rest of the work. I have been provided with a great network of great people for me to work with from all walks of creative life and I know the potential is huge.
If you are interested in supporting this project please contact me at nick@infiniteeureka.com or consider directly donating using the button that appears throughout this website. Thanks a lot.
Now. Let's see what we co-create!
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Nick Lankester
